Klara there must be a sense of relief for you now. Take this opportunity to be kind to yourself. The bad memories will always be there, but now you can live your life just for you. It's your time.
To be honest I just don't understand why people choose to ignore the signs of unwellness, but many do. It's a choice they make, and a selfish one at that.
You can now walk with your head held high, knowing that you did everything in your power to do the right thing.
I hope your girls are there for you. :)