Klara the sister was there. She had arrived for the party. She was the only one who was privy to it., other than the four of us.

Of course it was a long time ago, but I suspect that she would have shown her colors eventually, money for clothes that she couldn't ordinarily afford. and so on

Yes we should all have shared the loss. There's no doubt about that. Still, there's nothing like really growing up and knowing your guilt. That's a burden to carry.