I totally, totally, totally understand where you are coming from., Mark
And I do understand about clickbait titles not being you. It's not me either. That one I sent you was kosher, in the sense that it was all about my thespian friend, and true.
So yours is not a struggle per se. It's about the results if you write from the heart. How will that attract readers?
I say, keep doing this and see where it takes you.
I read two stories yesterday, written to attract the masses. I found the sexual overtones just a little sickening. The result is I won't read any more of her stuff.
So a two-way street it is, Mark. I'll try to find a couple of writers I think you will like...a LOT!