Bebe when my mum was dying, death was all I wanted for her. She was a tiny, emaciated version f herself. It was time. She'd had a very hard life, and I only wanted peace and freedom from pain for her.

Don't feel guilty about your feelings. I doubt there has been a human on earth who hasn't wavered between so many emotions that only time heals.

Enjoy your newfound peace and toast to a mother that you loved as best you could.